Karma.... is a bitch!

So... I have an aunt. Mom's older sis...

Sub normal che... got married. Had a kid and all.
Lived the joint family with Ma and Pa-in-law and one sister-in-law who was handicapped and hence stayed unmarried.
Something something happened... the next thing you know ... my aunt was undergoing shock treatments.
apparently the story is... her in-laws beat her up or sth... n she had gone mad.

i am talking from childhood memory here. facts are all kinda fuzzy now.

years rolled by... all in-laws are dead n gone. Aunt and her hubs live alone in this pretty cottage in Coonoor.

a lill bit about my aunt...
My aunt is huge... some 250+ pds! she talks non-stop! speaks loud... n is as innocent as a kid. shez so happy... has no expectations of anyone. her son rarely visits... it doesn't faze her. she n her hubs travel lots... visit my mom..other relatives and friends.
When visiting my aunt will help cook... n clean.
her hubs meanwhile sits quiet and doesn't talk one bit. I honestly believe they travel so much, so he can get off the hook from listening to her talk to him.
I tell my mom... to ask her NOT to visit when I am home.
Her non-stop chatter clearly exhausts me!

today... while yakkin with my Mom on the phone i hear her say...
Aunt had a fall and dislocated her arm n fractured her leg...
apparently shez too heavy and is on medication ... n this is her 4th fall in as many years.
Mom goes on to say... how her poor hubs is taking care of her and cooking n is oh! so exhausted taking care of her.

the same man... who beat up his wife / put her thru all that therapy all those years back....

Karma...tis a bitch!
It chases you n comes back to bite you in the butt! haha!

Just kidding

this my 50th post! woo-hoo!
*celebrations*

Rynu started pre-school.
end of day 4....

Me: Ryan... name some kids in your class.
Ryan: i donno

Me: Ok Name one girl
Ryan: Yeeeaaaaas.... Cassidy!

Me: *rofl...* OK name one boy now
Ryan: Yeeeeeaaas.... Sean
Me: *phew*

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in other news...

it's arrived....
the first admiration note for my girl...

kid named Anthony C drew Rave a picture of a pink ribbon that says
'Best girl in the class award'

haha!

Wordless

tired...
empty...
drained...

facebook...
google talk...
blog...
home front...

wordless
tired of it ALL

this is when i wish for a tail like the Navi have, in Avatar... to connect to mankind.
the person you want to connect with will automatically read your thots and understand you.

no need to explain... no arguments... no misinterpretations... no heart ache

no NEED for words...
just 'shhhhhhhhh.............................'

Dropping frequencies

something happened this week...

My 3.5 year old started pre-school. Nothing spectacular... right?

It's the same Nursery my girl went to.
Now... at this nursery, parents walk their kids into class and help them settle in. we can even hang out a few minutes.

I park... get Rynu out... and the short distance to the entrance.... Rynu holds my hand.

Overwhelming... that moment. His tiny hand in mine...
Reality strikes... hard.
My responsibility as a parent... the next 15+ years to come.
The many events and paths i will be walking with him...in his scholastic life and otherwise.

He walked in and in 2 minutes was happily coloring away. Not a care to see me leave him and go.
I walk away with the a smile thinking of some alone Me time.

I wondered why?... i didn't feel this feeling when I walked my first born to her first day at pre-school.

I remember that day so well... She was 2 yrs and 8 months and was just potty trained. I didn't do much home work in choosing the school and picked a strict catholic institution for her first pre-school. Parents were asked to leave their child at the door and LEAVE immediately.

Her first day she cried... n I stood outside and cried silent tears.
I was so anxious... at letting my first born go...
my emotions and pain... clouded my vision of the trees from the forest.
when her tears and my pain didn't cease even after 4 months, I pulled her out.

today i realize... when i see beyond my pain and drop the frequency of thoughts in my mind... i am able to see further beyond... my needs ... and far into the future.

Eywa!

Why do I believe in her?
Why was i routing for Jake Sully... to destroy the Sky people?

what was interesting for me was...

all Sci-fi's so far... have aliens attacking mother earth and its inhabitants in space ships and fancy robotic equipment.

and Avatar was 'role' reversal...
humans in robotic equipment and mother ships and fancy masks... attacking poor Na'vi on Pandora... who respond with pure belief in Eywa and bow and arrows!

i thought the na'vi were so beautiful... at 10 feet in height and sub-zero hips and beautiful beautiful eyes... and perky ears...and lashing tails... with beautiful blue skin...whatz not to love?

great movie... especially the 3D exp in I-Max!

totally open mouthed and mesmerized!